Life goes on...

Wow, it's been long since I wrote something about....anything. So, how's life? Pretty undecided I guess. I've got few problems that need to be fix, but I trust all will be okay in time.  My Christmas where weird because I had to spent them studying, something that I refused doing today since is 3 Days Kings here in Puerto Rico. Oh.....and you know that boy.....well lets say that I've accepted the "rejecting" part of the equation. Ok, so it wasn't a "rejection" exactly, but he never made a move and I just got tired of waiting for him to see all mi signs. I'm good I guess, it has been several weeks since I've seen him. I'll see him next week for a final, I guess I'll tel you guys how my heart felt. Well, I guess that's all for now. Life goes on...

"Pray" by Justin Bieber

I know some people dislike Justin Bieber for many things and I thinks they are little judgmental and without reason. Okay.....he may be young, and yes, all of the girls that are his age are crazy for him....but you know what? His music speaks to me. He recently realized this song in his acoustic album and I totally love it. The message that the lyrics carries goes beyond anything I've heard this last months. It's not about boys or girls, or heart broken or even how I want money, but about how we can help the people in need. There's hope for the world, we just have to see it, have faith and yes......PRAY!!!! Here is the lyrics for the song:

Oh, oh oh
And I pray

I just can't sleep tonight, knowing that things ain't right.
It's in the papers, it's on the tv, it's everywhere that I go
Children are crying, soldiers are dying, some people don't have a home.

But I know there's sunshine beyond that rain, 
I know there's good times behind that pain, hey. 
Can you tell me how can I make a change?

I close my eyes, and I can see a better day,
I close my eyes and, pray
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day,
I close my eyes and, pray.

I lose my appetite, knowing kids starve tonight.
Am I a sinner, cuz of my dinner, it's still laid on my plate.
Ooh, I got a vision, to make a difference, and I'll start it today.

Cuz I know there's sunshine beyond that rain,
I know there's good times behind that pain.
Heaven, tell me I can make a change.

I close my eyes, and I can see a better day,
I close my eyes and, pray.
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day,
I close my eyes and,

I pray for the broken-hearted,
I pray for the life not started,
I pray for all the lungs not breathing,
I pray for all the souls in need a break,
Can you give 'em one today?

I just cant sleep tonight.
Can someone tell me how to make a change?

I close my eyes, and I can see a better day,
I close my eyes and pray, oh.
I close my eyes, and I can see a better day,
I close my eyes and I pray, ooh.
I pray, yeah.
I pray.

I close my eyes and pray, yeah.

Hope

 

"You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel."

So, I was talking with my friend about the huge crush I have for this guy, right? And after a couple of weeks of the same old talk about how he could totally like me and stuff she goes: "He doesn't like you, you just have to face it". At the time I was like, alright, a little harsh, but true. But, how do you go to liking somebody to just feel nothing. 'Cause that's the point, I just can't shut down my feelings. I don't have control over my heart. Whatever it is that I see in him, goes beyond ME. It's like he's the air that I breath everyday, without it I just couldn't breath.....OK, so that last part was a little dramatic, but in essence true. So, after talking with my friend and feeling just totally horrible I decided to just don't like him anymore, like I could have any control over that...haha. I spend all weekend just totally depress, without hope. Then on Monday I saw him..................................................Holy crap, is like all was forgotten and he and I was the only people in the room. "He had me at hello", like that Tom Cruise movie. I mean the way he talks to me, or the way he touches my arm every time he wants to make a point just drives me insane. And I know its maybe nothing, he may think of me as a friend, but I can't help the way my heart slows down every time I see him, or the way every time I'm sad and he smiles I can't help it but smile too. With him I just know there is HOPE in the world.......for Me.    

What are you thinking?

       Hey there. So I'm here alone in my room just thinking. Life is so complicated some times. How I go on just wanting something that may never be, or at least is not going to happen for quite some time. Or is it? Okay, so I'll tell you what's going on but you cannot make fun of me...Love. Well not love exactly, but well....just finding it. Because, you see, I've been liking this person for quite a while and I just can't get whats he's really thinking. Does he like me, or its just my imagination? I like to think that he dreams about me day after day like I dream about him, but deep inside something tells me he does not. But, what is he really thinking? Well people...that's the question.   

I wish I could read between the lines, so I can Finally see what's in your mind...